When I was pregnant with my daughters I only gained between 20 and 25 pounds (pretty sure 5 pounds of it was swelling weight I gained in the final few days). After I gave birth, I dropped that 25 pounds in no time. In fact, I dropped 30.
Hate me. Go ahead. I hate me for that too.
Because when you LOSE it that fast (8 days, it took 8 days), you will gain it back if you aren’t careful. And I did.
It came back slowly. But suddenly, one day, I realized I had gained back 15 pounds of what I lost. So I started looking at what caused it and I realized…
I caused it.
It’s my fault.
I could work out, but I didn’t. There are always excuses. No time to go to the gym. Wanting to spend time with my daughters. Wanting to sleep.
I ran a 5k in October. Well, that’s not true. I participated in a 5k. I did not train. I had not ran in, literally, years, before I lined up for this 5k. I finished. My time was not pretty. Four years ago I could run a 5k in 35 minutes. 4 months ago, I ran it in 50, which, let’s face it, means I walked most of it.
I told myself that night I was getting my time back. I was going to beat my PR. I was I was I was.
And then I didn’t.
And then I saw a picture of me with my girls and I thought “Who is that fat girl?” I am not fat, but I LOOKED fat. I did not look like me. So I asked my husband to help. I asked him to start watching the girls in the afternoons and for a couple hours on Saturday and Sunday so I can exercise again.
I’m running again. My 5k time is now around 41 minutes. I’ve been running for less than 3 weeks and I’ve knocked 9 minutes off my time. I’m not running for 41 minutes. I’m only running for 8 – 10 minutes of that but I’m doing it. I will lose those 15 pounds again. And more. Because I need to be happy with myself again.
It’s so much easier to do this with friends. I push myself harder when I have friends with me at the gym. It’s fun. And when I can send a text to a friend that says “My ass hurts so bad I can’t move” and get the response of “Mine too. Damn that stripper move.” I know that we are doing something right. And we will get where we want to be.